LengThye..

yday i have arguement with hubby about the house about bb….i mang chang betul…
i dunno why i pecek suddenly…watever he said i dun like..i just want to ‘teng’ him only…
everyday also tell me the same thing,wana to buy over that stupid house…surely next time there are many arguement with his parent…i am so sien now…no mood to think of it anymore…
i cant imagine how next time….SHIT!!!
i know we have no moeny i knoe we are nt capable to renovate…i know we are the STUPID!!!!no money no talk!!!

errrrrrggggg……why why why……

another arguement is my bb……always complaint my bb tis and tat….said he U…cibai…he is my bb/…all ppl also cant say bad abt him!!he is the most cutie!!!

GOD!!please help me and my bb

Shit!!! really shit…wat is this grandparent….CB you….she know we are going to see bb….but she never ever think to stay and folo us go,hem1!! if is the first grandchild?sure she stay one more nite and dun want to back….

i m very sad!! why so unfair?y?y?y?

I m so TL them already…everday say their first grandchild how cute how good how happy they are when see him…
CB!!! then say my son tis dunno that duno…sometime i really think to move out and din see their stupid face ler….
but this house location, renovation all very good…so if we go buy outside then it will b small, not convenince…and many many others thing to consider…safety….etc…

sometime i feel i ledi influenced by the sil…she did many thing to make me dun like mil.i know but why i still jump into it?i shall awake 24 hours..!!!must !!!she try to get my heart i know..

i know my son no handsome as u all…i know..but he is my son,….i sure love him more than u all ler…..i know what my son feel when he grow..no one sayang him, no one focus on him…i know tat stupid feeling..cos i also passed by this stage…my kids life is pass by no ppl sayang…ppl only say i m ugly!! everyone hurt me indirectly…but for me i m hurt directly and deeply….i know i got no such pretty face, such beautiful features…such fair skin….so i work hard on myself on study…on my body to improve….at last everyone really change their sight to me…i get my lovely husband myself…i get my bb and family…i must love them forever……

so instead of loving my family, i got to suit myself again to their family…actually i got nt such big reaction to their attitude as long as they dun talk abt my son…dun always say my son’s bad thing…i will pecek and nt happy…everyone also cant say abt him, only me and hubby!!!

my lovely son, u must grow healthy,happy and b more handsome!!fight down ur cousin  brother!!!!!
Thanks god tat give me everything i have now…i m so long no go praying…i shall arrange for it..but got to see my bb situation tis week first.!!!kambateh!!!!